Letter to my past self

Dear Kim of 2007,

I'm sorry. You suffered because the strength you'll have in the future isn't there for you in your present. When that Jerk said he didn't know who he wanted to be with, I wish I could go back and speak for you. I could have told him then what I know now: Let him choose her. You deserved someone who you didn't have to share, not like that. I wish you could have been able to tell him that if he chose her, he would lose you forever, because he isn't worthy of having you. Past Self, anyone who would keep you on the side while he's off loving someone else can't truly love anyone. I wish I could go back and tell you how much better your life becomes when you realize that you're free.

Also, Thank you. Thank you for surviving those years and for taking all that happened and channeling it into making yourself stronger. You would be amazed at who you become and how you face the world in four years.

I know you'll be looking for someone in your future, because I am now. Don't worry- we will find that person who doesn't ask us to share, who loves us as we deserve to be loved.

-Kim of 2011